HEARTACHE

Their is a deep pain hidden
In the depths of your eyes unbidden

My heart reaches out to you
So far away ;without contacts due....

How to with words or actions fill?
Fill the void love can ;with skill?

I need you to meet me midway
How else will I ever have a say?

Not that I do not see your despair
Wonder how at all we will pair

But life with its intricacy
Leaves little in ecstasy

Hope a spark finds its place
To add a warm relationship stays
______________________________Malinikadir 

Partnering life

I check and double check
But my heart has only love to spare
Hard feelings ebb away unstuck
Age has mellowed me ;I simply care.....

I find forgiving easier;
memories erased out; screen clear
Makes my days busier
My thoughts hold no fear......

Truth is faced ; as it is
Accepting self with shortcomings
Is no fairy tale bliss
But still quaint happiness prevails....

Across the world
No matter the distances
Time rolled;changes natural to hold
mingling edges no fences
_____________________Malinikadir

Tears

They slips from my eyes

As thoughts of you flow through

I see you as a friend in forever ties.....

Yet this bonding close; too close

My inner voice to me does disclose

I smile at my naughty self

In the passing ;as the hanging mirror

reflects me from its shelf......

I do not deny to myself, ever

My eyes speek silent,if not clever......

As I for a fraction stop

My heart it does hold a dent....

Which into words oft pop....

As then the words of golden truth

From my heart spontaneous comes forth.....

I long to rush across the distance between

To into your arms fly; for a fraction longer than necessary

To silent let you know;my love its value to redeem

For my tongue is harsh to false protect

So you do not my broken thoughts ever  detect......

Yet even as words to send you away is often frames

My heart would like you to stay and friend remain

But how will you?my heart plaintive asks and dreams...

For the romantic ;larking just round the bend

Wishes this friendship; to into love blossom and unbend

You in your maturity and experience

Can see my responses and self struggles plain

Try hard as I do to hide it in vain;a little dense...

As if ;you can not my heart in my eyes discern

Gentleman in control ;walk away with a little concern;

Tears overwhelm; they fall not heeding my advice.....

Tears for the distance necessary;tears for the ambiguity

Tears for the plain truth;emotions misplaced......unwise

Tears to solve this sizzle puzzle;tears to change your mind

Tears to promise true relationship;tears too, of my undying love forever remind

------------------------------------------------------------------Malinikadir

Melanie Martinez toxic lyrics

Your seemingly limitless energy!

You much like fresh dew drop shine
On every grass blade tip
Making me with added vigor pine!!!

Your seemingly limitless energy!

                                               Adds the dash of youthfulness much envied
                                                        I have oft tried to my fascination deny
                                               Eyes glued on your soft tread on wet grass spied.....


                                                                Your seemingly limitless energy!
                                                     

You are a figment of my imagination perhaps
That makes you no less real I console myself
For you are like the little boy in my heart ;beyond time's lapse


Your seemingly limitless energy!!!!


Part of your childhood now
Long lost in your teenage spice
And youths responsible duty's slice......

Your seemingly limitless energy!!


Ever green  my memory claims
Holding you for ever dear
Loved one you must grow up ...as life tames

Your seemingly limitless energy!

With you ;Still like  fresh dew drop's shine

On every grass blade tip
Making me with added vigor pine!!!

***********************************************************Malinikadir

PEACE MY THIRST NEVER CEASING

“Peace” is the” hunger” of the new born

The” thirst” of the old

The “need” to bridle the power of the youth

It is the fundamental need of the human race

It is the reason for tears of a poet

It is NOT a disease of the imbalanced mind

It is NOT a curse of God

It is NOT the lost treasure

It is “A breathing all Alive bird”

Represented by the pigeon……..

Let not the terrorism of the less evolved mankind;

Or the technically more evolved mankind

OR THE MISUSED INTELLIGENCE,

 MISGUIDED………..

Allow this pigeon to fly away…..

Let it live in our colonies

To sing of gurgling peace

This is my plea my GOD

Call they do; you in many names

I call you the light

The light of enlightenment

--------------------------------------------------Malinikadir

ALL CLEAR

    ALL CLEAR 

Each tip holding dew

Reminds me of you.....

I STRETCHED MY SELF
 rolled and strolled
Adding memories under my feet
As if ;all this dreaming would turn real

THIS MISTY MOIST MORNING
Knowing you mattered to me;
MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS
more than world could comprehend........
I DON'T KNOW IF YOUR EYES WILL
On this page fall.....at all
But I keep my word
and with whole heart speak
As if in answer to a calling
Unmentioned ;
To CLEAR MISCONCEPTIONS......
Soft under the feet
A new dawn, a new morn.....
Holding my hopes,
with new horizons.....
Where you loom large
And I docile trail
Knowing I am frail.....
But staunchly robust
In standing faith........
For as long as the grass is green
My foot steps shall hold a spring
My heart shall anticipate a ring;
Even if it is a trifle thing
It shall in my heart grow a..... wing
Feathered with love, softly to cherish
As if it is all, you too wish!
__________________________Malinikadir

RANDOM THOUGHTS _ CONNECTIVITY

I visualize , dream........
This morn I wake to thoughts of wondering what water ways and connectivity....
drainage and sewage.....planning focus will do?
less hazards of floods.....
clogged area's give rise to mosquito's
Mosquito's the carrier of multiple diseases....

Deep sleep the replacement of chemicals in brain....
Adequate sleep will result in well re cooperated individual after night sleep as ..
small babe to adult......will be in his or her optimum performance, behavioral sequences.....

- Malinikadir



Traffic jams in peak hours:

1.Parents feel better sending off children and then starting off to work.
Schools could have people's leaders to monitor from 8th standard children....all arrivals keep baggages and collect on common grounds for assembly( So that teachers who also are parents can come in an hour later)
2.Office hours could be an hour later.....
Again schools could provide old ladies as ayah's to monitor till all children can leave premise
( part time income for aged ,which may meet out their personal small needs perhaps or medicine needs)
((Taj Mahal  speaks of Shah Jahan love for  Mumtaj's ......it also is the birth place of hindi...)).

This will improve people related in such industries....
The clustered hut-ments....may have better facilities.....
That will face Tsunami better...........

Just as the human cell"The family"
then is the base of each society......Better earnings, better spending power.....
........more cash....more options to face problems better......

Weekend system  in America ...is one thing that would have also perhaps been into Indian; lifestyle IF Rajeev Gandhi had lived longer.....;this will build home bondings... better....all round.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Malini kadir

If silk merchants, cloth merchants of the weaver community living who had been travelling
place to place with bundles on their head.... have then joined hands.....
This is something that put paid to "no sales problem"for small small investors...

For globalization is affecting the smaller business sectors.....

For once the people improve in wealth going for branded products......becomes there logical move
have united  into one.

O Unity is strength...Karnataka, Kerala, Tamil Nadu, ...let water flow!...make mutual connective pacts.......

United we Stand.... Divided we fall.......kinds......is to be learned......I guess.

When multi nationals employ the people already in similar professions.......learni


(Taj Mahal  speaks of Shah Jahan love for  Mumtazh ......it is also the birth place of hindi...)).
I will walk away , saying "work is worship!"God is Love"

Too one and all ........who have been involved or up setted in any ways.....

1.Simultaneous equations ;where priorities are rightly placed...should be applauded surely!

2 Even if the world speaks ill of a woman,God watching above knew the truth......;Pact was with him.....and all of you know the rest.....

3.A mothers bond to her son is sometimes too strong....

And perhaps the years at work and college .....gives breathing space for this bond to get seasoned and natural....

4.Circle is complete ......; when?

Love is complete.......; when?

Home is complete .......;when?

Education is complete ........;when?

Environment is complete .........;when?

World is heaven when?

Religion is embraced with its diversity,

yet be it what religion....

At its root it  preaches Love.....

GOD IS LOVE
EVERY NOOK AND CORNER
EVERY DITCH AND HIGH
EVERY ACTION AND REACTION
........speaks of the Almighty!

Smile and the world will smile with you.....Cry and the world will laugh at you

Ask advice they will help you; Ask help they will advice you....

So take life as it is!......

Go on.....

Each decision has the power to change life's direction be it small or big....

AND AS NEWTON HAS SAID;....

"For every action; then is an equal and opposite reaction"

Life goes on......TRUST AND RELATIONSHIP IS THE LOYAL BASE

Malini kadir

You Are The Inspiration

I see the wings of corruption
Spread far and wide
Like an unearthed Dinosaur
Fed with existent tide

I see the ministerial angels
In the fancy colored 
Feather light frills of pride
Flying in the puissance
Peer pressure, unable to denounce
Caught in the false glitter
Of the lauded media


Reality of our times
No longer a half hidden exchange
Under the table
Is this ruling party's 
"On the table" issue
To be faced,


This perhaps undermines
Decisions otherwise,
Better possible


Take measures
hitherto not taken
To ensure  mandatory
Co operations
Expected...................
Understood
acted upon
and challenged 


Let not religion become
Pickled treats
To fanatic, drunken mass;
But ensure progress
Worthy of royal pride!

So that the setting Sun
From the west at dusk
half turns
To view the hue of the rising Sun
Of the eastern energetic skies.........

Hope I hug you dearer;
Love I plead you every where
To open the conscience
Of the men in power
To lead stronger
Worthy of their bold blood
Acts cowardly
Of bombing to death
Innocent many unaware
That last breath
he was taking....terrorised!.

May the warm hands of 
Unconditional love
Embarrassed not;
Eternally run the show
In man kind's mind.


Eulogize to change their opinions
To the popular rages of our times
To ensure the validity ;
Of higher rated tenure!

To make the world 
Stand up with due interest
and apparent appreciation
Of " INDIA  AS A SECULAR COUNTRY"

TALL

Many a tree; unnoticed passed by.....
Fell to this earth giving shelter to many
How oft it must in toil of growth sigh
Did man think twice to cut any?

Forest of them burn away.....
The earth misses it in a large way
If it had a way to speak or have a say
Would it have let you cut it ;any way?

Men of great potential, great valor
Must also  the bed of death face...
Then why not add as much color
As possible to life keeping pace?


It is hardship he weathered brave
That makes him stand apart
Makes human my heart; crave
His friendship girdle ; to be a part....


Tall he stood iconic
towering in life
Massive and stoic
weathering strife...........

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~malinikadir

DEEP FEARS resolved..............

"Neeya naana" a program in Vijay T.V
The show is a debate show;
and The show on October 7th
held a comprehensive view
On the topic swirling in my mind.Our daughter- in -law" Kavitha" participated in this show.
I feel a deep sense of gratefulness to the team who  researched and conducted this show
anchored by GOPINATH

I must; tell all my well wishers, friends and the surrounding neighbours....
I have been traversing  some years of my recent life,
In comprehensive fears filled....my mind in tears at the sight of the baby......as she grew up......
a result of cross cousin marriage
Unable to hate, or love.....
But pulled into a vortex of inner dejection too
"depression"

My life apart....I do not debate it as it was entirely my choice.
So the plus and minus my own responsibility
It has had its own challenges and I have found my own ways of facing it...
But; having married in close relative

I have chosen to marry my mother's youngest brother.

I now have three children .................

I am in the lookout to find a groom for my own children

......mind has been in inner research  all the time.....fears lurking unvoiced...........

Yazhini's birth had its own emotional, moral....
and deep rooted fears evoked..........
......being a bit of a softy;poetic in disposition.....having married for love......
I care more than I should and worry more than I should....
emotional to the core...............

This debate were stability in marriage is concerned....it is true;

relatives circle and care is definitely perhaps overpowering ;in the larger sense

yet gives a deeper security too!an Indian system to take pride in......

"DRAVIDIAN KINSHIP"........is some thing to  be valued!

also the fact that 48% and 52% is the only difference as far as genetic disorder is concerned.....

and 25% there is gene sharing in mama and akka's daughter marriage coupling
and 12 to 13% gene pool sharing in cross cousin marriages is a clear fact to remember.eases the mind .....
to a great extent.

If and in cases were we have chronic persistent conditions.....
perhaps a logical decision to take is also required.......

Socially a stable system, undoubted....for if not despite misunderstanding, tug- a -war issues
we still hold on......
and I myself would not go to these lengths to see happiness in faces not worrying about myself,or my ill reputations in consequence.....
    "beyond trivia.....unity is strength!!"

had it not been for the kinship and "our people" feelings and the help in various tricky situations of life.


       "THE SENSE OF BELONGING"

Which is the happiness of being related connected
then the distance of time, place of residence, why country of residence...
the inability to say hello every day is greatly shortened.....

as" true love is understanding the other's pain"

you too can experience it.............

"let us find happiness in unity,

progress in relationship and trust!"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~malinikadir

WAVES COULD NOT WASH YOU AWAY

                                       WAVES COULD NOT WASH YOU AWAY

Lord of this world ;
And of all three worlds
I am told......

The foot prints in the sand deep
Speaking of your warm self......
As waves take a peep.......

Incoming tide
All frothy and bubbly
Emotions take a ride......

Slowly faith finds its feet
matching steps with you
Life is then heavenly and sweet!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~m.malinikadi

IN OUR WORST TIMES

IN OUR WORST TIMES

In our worst times
Lord must have picked us up
I often feel this,vibes
Undefinable, pregnant
With the emotions strong
Held through my tough times;
Eyes dazzled by the Sun's brilliance
Cozy in the lords hold
To life on this earth behold!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~malinikadir

I dream to wake up oft

I dream to wake up oft
With different thoughts crowding
Predominant yet soft
Insistent wish for peace un-denying ......

I wonder at the scattered efforts
present here and there
Wonder if joint ventures are comforts
Simultaneous growth here.......

Odds and dead end
Make man pursue his limits
New ways form to mend
Progress en-route progressive hits

For ever this thought remains
That chemical balance of brain
The root and seat of wisdom strains
Under pressure in daily lanes

Working class should have Saturday, Sunday off
Weekend systems should  prevail every where
It would ensure  rested recuperated working force ;a mass of,
Better human man power in our land here

Even schools would fare better attentiveness
With children learning to pursue other activities too
Once sleep adequate given;will well being harness!!
These times of computers ;eye strained by T.V also  true.........

Do we relax the muscles of the eye ; look far off?
Where are the open grounds and play grounds not many
These are luxuries rare found ; only in dreams more.....
Cycles are mentally looked down upon....still healthy sunny!

Old woman, will you stop advising?
Or shall I throw stones to show my dis-approval?
I feel like throwing a bucket of water, down your head splashing!
Shall I push you into the ocean itself ,throw in a swimsuit and a towel!

Swim a while
let your moods elevate
Watch and SMILE!
I shall join you later ;don't wait!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~M.Malinikadir

Living delicate in the fabric of life;

Living delicate  in the fabric of life;
The pages into days flew
I remain a docile wife
Of this all very well knew.......

I pick the words to play
Words to tell and say
There is a problematic way
outspread here,to change says nay!

But the presence of progress
Lies in embracing change
If not life will in path digress
Into waters ,oft strange.....

The simpleton outlook
Much smiled at
Is out of the book
I smile to say so what?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~malinikadir

Humanitarian ?

When the world is bent on thinking less of you
And you are hell bent to clear their doubts
When the skies hold angry dark clouds few
Makes a fuss ,when every cloud counts

In adding to the quantum of water required
To gentle touch this world
Where chaos unfurls ,as if wrongly wired
And have heads with hair uncurled

Madam of Magical powers
Anger in mind curls
Why this much anguish I must face?
When only good I have done to retrace

Is it to bake an Humanitarian cake?
Where all must know each other better?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Malinikadir

Looking through the window

Looking through the window
Of the Car ;speeding down a flyover
I watch the loaded, crowded bus below
My mind races on with thoughts forever

Can n't stop them even if I try
My heart goes out to those people
Who show their mute  misery
In their attire, false glitter not simple

In their eyes, their weary deficit look
Looks unhealthy ;our common Indian array
Will in near future get the "Somalian look'
Stressed,time taxed ;cash bound by the hooks.............

For the depreciating rupee
Making leaps in  tugging at decisions
Who will , the common man below see?
Our country now in electronic visions

Yet the scales are badly needing attentions
The wealthy pockets pull all the strings
The lower too get their mentions
But what of the tax paying middle man's stings?

His is sandwiched by fears one  side ;
His family , community, religious intentions
He must to his society in pride abide
Here in lies his vicious chains of limitations

Is there a feasibility in near future of substantial wages?
Decent affordable, well distributed food and greens?
Happy children,with greater physical fitness off stages?
Building a volume of hope ;as India strides forward in dreams.......

Direct them ; let them follow special interests;passions if possible  young
Build a brighter tomorrow;even as we labour with the pit falls of today!
Teachers, doctors,religious heads, political parties with Stars wing
To make the skies of morrow ;shine in a different radiant way!

Skill grows with practice; sticking to the jobs for longer period
If growing salary, promotions inspire will not man aspire?
If colleges are sanctioned ; are jobs also not to be planned, weirdo!
But  things will pick up ; simultaneously " All fronts progress" will transpire!

India and China,will show the rest of the world
The man power ; well harnessed is supreme power
As the pages of paper flies, transparency to journalistic future unfold
All political party will journey to turn an eye to secure the educated's cover........

Hope is a rope ,green,youthful, trusting, despite flattery of outward glitter
Mankind every where depends on; minds of leaders in power....
The focus of the limelight to trigger a new focused efforts beyond detour
Making the world sit up ; Washington post to get up and cover..........
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Malini Kadir

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HOPE

Hope where have you run away ,my beloved child?
I wish unsaid all the words that hurt you......wild!
But with the strangling fears , in crushing din
I could not stop the rushing words from win
Minutes hardly flew by
When I could just sigh;
But the words had raced to the line of victory
I could not find the names that helped; in the directory!
With the words; I watched you run.......
Having escaped into the open to have fun!
Then I turned; to my lord.............
To let my eyes speak my pain loud.
Hope ;stop!please stay to say!
All is well in your very own way!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MaliniKadir

ALL THAT GLITTERS IS NOT GOLD

                                                          Peace... is seeing a sunset, and knowing who to thank. 

                                                                  Unknown 

                                                          The sunrise is Gods greeting - the sunset, his signature. 

                                                                          Unknown

All that glitters is not always gold
Today imitations flood the bazaar
Appearances cool;poise without scar
Pleasing to the eyes;oft It is told

Rare we see opportunities at hand
Mankind isn't in all that stiff bind
Fluctuating currents; control demand
Problems tend to oft; us blind

For better or for worse
When we dig another out;
Of an inexplicable curse
God will bless us; without doubt!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MaliniKadir

Being Misunderstood

BEING MISUNDERSTOOD

It hurts,Yes.....very badly
It robes the natural bubbling spirits in you;
To wish to nosedive under the blanket
Blanket oft found easy
In the sorry corner of the lonely bed
But ; it hardly is the best joke in town
Or the woman's best friend .
Standing up to defend one self
Is not easy, or merely a time waster;
Done with the grace of poetry;
Is sophisticated;
Mark of a  learner , scholar , poet...
In the hard world of competition,
Where; "I do what I feel like
I know I am right
The rest of the world can go boot itself"
Is the attitude fast growing.
right or wrong secondary!

RARE

Rare a gentle man,
To go lengths;
Rarer a gentle man who tries.....
To make an effort to action
So what if his very thought ;
Was simply off the center
In a tangent; misunderstood by the face value of words
Words in play in poetry!
Poetry is romantic
Poets more so......
Perhaps it appeared bold ;
When it held words
Like"JUST FOR YOU".
The folds of reality
Was dramatized YES!
The papers, media;
All tools of propagation
When misunderstanding is simply cleared
And forgiveness is granted 
Is sure bound for ever with chords
Chords strong and bold
Perhaps not very tasteful
But  just for sensitive hearts 
Of poetic dispositions or not......
Are not the only ones that hurt.......
Every human being is easy hurt.....
Words harsh achieve little.
Perhaps White lies are
Chocolaty wrapped to hurt less
Simply that.......


A TIME WASTER

For not every one;
Has the courage to hang the phone
On the face
Or to refuse to answer a call
Not every one 
Is great enough
To hold on to principles 
As if to dear life
Not everyone is harsh enough
To refuse to accept
The humble hand 
Stretched in friendship
But the Irony
Is " Silence speaks"


SILENCE SPEAKS

"It tells she should know better!
She should toe the line,
She should hide her truths
Perhaps go bury herself
She is a bore;
like a broken record
Scratched disc
A crushed paper cover
A chocolate wrapper
He could do with out;
Door mat not to be spoken to;
Neither do pin cushions demand  words "

Neither Do fantasy
make real life sweeter.
Only a friend can do this........

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Malini Kadir

HURT

It turns the knife
Blames no one.....
Simply bleeds
Slowly killing
Human beings ;
Wishing warmth
MISFIT in;
Mechanical
Time taxed
Money driven
Hate geared
Egocentric
World
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MaliniKadir